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Topic: mental health
Dear Ms. Detamore,
I apologize for the bizarre description I sent of myself yesterday. My husband came home from work, read my email, and replied, "They will think you are psychotic!"
If I describe myself in terms of auras and tarot cards no one will take me seriously.
May I try again? I think my trouble is a flaw in judgment. What I find significant is not usually significant to the normal person. My favorite ring, gold necklace, dog and husband all have an equal subjective "feel" of importance in my mind but intellectually and objectively I understand that this is not so. It then becomes difficult for me to describe myself in a short space because there are "too many" facts and trivialities that crowd my mind and seem significant.
Here is a new, short statement for your journal to use and again, I am happy if you print my name.
Every time I thought about doing a self portrait I imagined myself with a pineapple sitting on my head. A self portrait without a pineapple seemed impossible. I live in Vermont with my husband, a step-daughter and a well trained german shepherd. More of my artwork can be seen on my website www.schizophreniaandart.com. My goal in life is to one day have a painting in a museum and to fit into a Prada dress.
Thank you for your time,
Sincerely,
Karen Blair
Of all the significant events that role around in my mind, the fact that sometimes my husband can see my aura, that it is a purple aura, and that the few times I've asked the tarot a question the answer always came true, I made the choice to have these events define me? It is like a person who occationally goes to church talking about their relationship to God as defining who they are. Even people who have a significant relationship with God, when asked to professionally define themselves, they don't mention religion. What my husband actually said to me was you can't mention religion and hope to be taken seriously. My husband never said I was saying things that were not true, just, that they are a part of my religion and need to be treated as such. With privacy and reverence.
The few mystical experiences I've had in my life, and they have been few, have rocked my world. I'm the daughter of a scientist, and as such, I've always longed for the mystical side of life that seemed throughout childhood denied to me.
Posted by dignifyme
at 8:27 PM EDT
Updated: Thursday, 24 August 2006 8:36 PM EDT